If you can read this it works!
I deleted all my previous entries in here. I'm going to start using this for something useful. I used to write a lot and I really miss it. Not like a diary about my life but just how I feel. I guess it helps to release some stuff.
I think about things a lot and one of the things that has been constantly on my mind lately is how much i've been ignoring the rest of the world around me. I don't mean like ignoring people and being a loner (that is a blog for another day) but ignoring world issues. I used to be pretty in touch with issues and I loved taking CWI in high school. I used to read newsweek all the time and I enjoyed learning so much about culture and life that I never knew.
I think if anyone owns a calendar they would understand why it was today that I started thinking about this. Today is September 11th. When the planes were crashing I was sleeping. I was in 7th grade and I remember not really understanding what was going on. It was a weird time in my life because it seemed like this was something that everyone was impacted so greatly by and it just didn't mean much to me. Whenever I would express my confusion about this I would always get a response that was sort of like shutyourfreakingmouth about everything I said. I didn't mean any disrespect I guess I just didn't understand. I felt like an outcast and it wasn't a good feeling. I think that we, as people have the best intentions but it doesn't always come out that way to everyone. We are all on different levels and not everyone has the same amount of understanding or knowledge as the next. I think that it's really unfair of us to expect that people read our mind and share our beliefs.
This November, we will cast votes to decide the next president. This will be my first year voting and I am going to vote. It is a terrible statistic that about half (possibly more) of the population does not vote. Neither of my parents actively vote or mention anything about politics. I used to want to hide from politics to avoid being judged. I can completely relate to the population that doesn't like to vote and likes to pretend they are sick of politics. If you vote democratic you're a hippie blah blah blah and if you vote repulican you're ignorant, if you vote independment you're a coward yadddda. All the voices are there and no matter which side you choose, you're wrong. So unless you're ready and passionate about backing up your choice then it's better not to say anything at all because there is always someone ready to squash you make you feel like the biggest moron ever. They try to do that too, and they win.
I really wish that there was some form of voting education that wasn't partial to one candidate or another. I wish that there was one that was straightforward and factual. Kind of like on wikipedia where you can see qualifications, views and criticisms. I bet in this day there has got to be at least a website about that but I have yet to find it. If anyone knows of such a thing, let me know.
Voting is such a difficult thing because you really want to choose the right person for the job. If anything goes wrong you could feel guilt later for voting the way you did and about half of the wrong will probably blame you. That sucks that we live in a society like that. I really wish that democrats and republicans didn't exist. I wish it was person for person and it wasn't a battle. I wish that politics didn't cause so much hate and anger among us. I wish that people didn't constantly rely on the government to help them live their lives. I wish we all had the ability to choose who and what we are for ourselves. I realize that is a lot of ask and obviously that would result in chaos so it's obviously not something that would work.
What I really wish is that we as people could have the abiility to trust each other and to help out others who are honestly in need of a little push. Then there would be no need to a government screening process to try and accurately separate the abusers of the system from the people who are actually in need. The abusers of the system are the reason that people who actually need assistance are being denied.
Where I work we can issue refunds but usually we will not. We have put policies in place that are there because people try to commit fraud on a daily basis. It sucks when we get that one legitimate customer who seriously deserves a refund and we can't offer it because there is a possibility that it isn't a legitimate claim. This policy allows us to treat all customers the same, like crap. At least it's level crap.
That's all for now.
